"I have so much to say when I’m alone, but whenever I’m in the presence of another person I forget it all. During those moments, it’s as if another person takes over, someone who has no ability to process complicated thoughts into words. Something is trapping me, and I don’t know what it is. The less I know about it, the stronger it becomes and my grasp on the outside world gets weaker and weaker. The only way I’ve been able to explain my thoughts is through writing. I fear that with time, it will take this too, and all my channels with reality will be broken."